Monday, May 23, 2011
Affability is a virtue, but today I really felt like a grinning moron in the morning, because the exterior didn't reflect or signal anything interior. I can't say that I was really happy just to see some people, even some of the students. The dissonance did make me wonder if it is not affability but a defense mechanism, a shield to disguise awkwardness. What about the stiff upper lip of not broadcasting one's pain or sadness? Stoic reserve does come in handy, and one does not unburden one's self on strangers.